ON AN EMPTY TANK

Lets just take a moment to drool over Crystal Renn in her curvy days. This body shape is the epitome of a sex siren!!!

Weight: 116 Kilos
So ive still managed to lose a little something something since I started!

Well its only been 3 day since I pledged to stop eliminate sugars-fats and
I do miss my lovely toxic fizzy drinks.....aaah.....Ive been on the H2o but its
like an alcoholic I guess?
I work 2 nightshifts per week at my slave job and sometimes Id find myself guzzling 3x cans overnight. Not suprising to be in this sitch huh?

Anyway lets focus:
1. Im only gonna try to stick to h20, mineral water and the occassional fresh juice (just quietly between you and me I had 1x cup of juice)
This is bound to help since I didnt drink water at all - shock horror - yes I know
2. No diet drinks - aspartem? is dangerous and bad for you
3. Getting wild - eating whereever whatever I want 1x per month. BIG CHANGE since Id eat out 1x per week and order take out 3-5 x per week.
4. Cut down on sugar, oil, butter, fats
5. Oops let not forget exercise - my dance classes begin in another 2 weeks. I do 2x classes/week but looking to step this up to 3x classes.

Ok so thats it for now dont want to inundate myself so soon

RUDE AWAKENING

With a humble heart I return. My intial attempt lost steam in a matter of days. No recriminations, I'll just start again, its ok. But today I found out differently. There isnt an endless supply of new leaves to turn over.

I had promised January would be my health month so I asked for a glucose 2hr blood test. Disbelieving that something could truly be wrong but scared, it was still a shock being told Im 1x level away from diabetes.
My mother has diabetes and I already have PCOS and gallstones which places me
in a higher risk bracket.

This isnt just about looking hot now, its about saving and restoring my health (plus looking HAWT!!!)
There were a few tears shed in anger for I know better but didnt take heed. I am thankful I have a chance to hopefully improve what Ive damaged.

One of my new years resolution was to keep my word. Sounds simple but deceptively difficult. Its the little things: being late/sticking to a diet/budgeting. The funny thing about integrity is its so easily tarnished, till you wake up one day and your word doesnt hold any value to others and more importantly to yourself.