DROP IT LIKE ITS HOT

So here I am again.  The prodigal returns.  Yet I am in a strong state of mind. Despite the constant fluctuation 1-2 kilos up or down with more movement than the Dow Jones.  The Yo-Yo effect I think is a direct reflection of my motivation. I play at being good then revel in the my wicked darkside of food indulgence.  Yet  I am newly focused.  I think much has to do with my pending Thailand trip, the mere thought of a squeezing into bathers fills me with panic and makes me want to dream it all away.  But unfortunately I am stranded in the realm of reality and thus  must make a change.